a good night's sleep has done the trick

for the most part... still struggling with the things mentioned but at least i've come down from the hysteria reached last night. the zenith, without question, was when i had roscoe out for his nightly walk and he wouldn't go to the bathroom and i envisioned him waking me up again at 2 in the morning so i burst into tears on the front law as sarah and our neighbor came home. sarah hugged me and i sobbed for a while as the neighbor in a rush of awkwardness fumbled with her keys to get into her apartment. i cried about everything from how i was feeling lonely to how i don't like my new bookcase. i think i just needed to get it out of my system. it looked like sarah had been hit by a truck, i guess i've been hiding everything pretty well. she came home pretty much straight away after work which means a lot to me, even if it wasn't on purpose.

i've also tried today to be better with calling people and spent a bunch of time on the phone. while i know i "did good," i am again behind on work and am presently struggling with how to set up a seating chart for my period 2 "yahoos" as my psuedo-father matt calls them. as mentioned earlier, i really do like them as a class. they are funny and i have fun with them and i know that if i am able to wrangle them i can really teach them a lot. i already have a feeling this will be my pet class. i just hope they take to me like i've already taken to them... in honor of that here are few amsuing/ fustrating anecdotes about the yahoos... but they are my yahoos so that makes it almost ok...

in the computer lab, drimal asked if our dogs could have a play date and then the rest of the dream team (smith, forrester, tessler, nusbaum and sargent) drilled me about my love life, finishing with the comment "maybe you'll find a husband in this class."

in the classroom, i am pretty sure one of them whistles at me when i write on the board but i can't prove a) who it is b) what the intent is. i'd call them on it if it didn't seem incredibly egotistical to assume they are cat calling me when they could just have a joke among themselves - this will have to be monitored and figured out.

tessler has been sitting in the classroom before the bell rang for about ten minutes. once it went and class had started he asked me if he could print out his paper in the writing center next door, i immediately said "no, you should have done that when you were sitting around." to which he responded, "are you serious? you'd rather have it a day late then let me go now" and i said "it has nothing to do with me - you can't go." as i collected the papers i looked up and noticed he had gone anyway. when he came back he filled out this survey i had made and made a wry and really snotty comment about how the perfect teacher (the last question on the survey) is someone that would let him go to the writing center. when i read it i made a sarcastic comment about it to him and at the end of class i called him out on it and he said "there are people coming in late and who don't even have it so i don't understand why this is a big deal" to which i replied with "that is a fair observation but this isn't about them, it's about you, next time, please, for me, just print out before class." he flippantly said "yah" and walked out. whatever, i am not going to suck up to a kid. i am going to be fair and kind and respectful and if he doesn't like me regardless, we both will deal.

there is without question more where that came from but i am tired now and getting behind on work and it's getting late and i think i just thew up in my mouth. more work while roscoe chews on a bone under my desk.

parent's night tomorrow - it's look like another 15 hour day. god help me.